I missed the memo about beauty, baby bumps and Beyoncé.
The other day I was surfing the interwebs and came across this article about Beyoncé’s video for her new single, “Countdown”. If I’m at a party and a Beyoncé song comes on, I’ll shake my booty as much as the next person, but I wouldn’t say that I’m a huge fan. But since Beyoncé is now pregnant, she has become a lot more interesting to me. I’m a sucker for a celebrity baby bump, I’ll admit it. I have a freakish fascination with the fecundity of famous people. There should probably be a 12-step program for this.
I was curious to see how Beyoncé’s pregnancy was worked into the concept of the video and how it might have affected her dancing and performance style. My curiosity was transformed to awe and admiration when I watched the video…here check it out…
Artistically, I think this video is tremendous fun and I’m on a personal mission to learn that neck move she’s doing about 90 seconds in. But what makes this video extra special, to me at least, is that Beyoncé seems so happy, comfortable, and confident. It’s her business to look awesome anytime she leaves the house and she’s often insanely glamorous in her fashion choices. But in simple oversized shirts and her Audrey Hepburn-esque basic black turtleneck and leggings, I think Beyoncé has never looked more beautiful.
It’s ingenious that this video cuts together footage from early weeks of Beyoncé’s pregnancy (in the black outfit, her tummy’s still flat, but the boobs are a dead giveaway) with a few snippets of her looking unmistakably pregnant. The video isn’t “about” her being pregnant, but I think the fact that she was pregnant probably made a huge difference to the finished product. I say this because my own experience of being a deliriously happy pregnant woman was pretty transformative.
It’s cliché to say that pregnant women are “glowing” and all that crap, but something special does happen when you are happily attached to a good partner, you know yourself pretty well, and then you say to the universe, “I think I’m ready for a baby.” Then you have sex with no contraception, which is a big thrill, and by sheer good luck, a baby starts growing in your body. Statistically, getting pregnant is not on par with winning the lottery or anything, but when you really want to be pregnant, and you get pregnant, you feel like the luckiest person on the earth.
So maybe that’s what I’m seeing in Beyoncé’s video…that extra gleam in her eye, the ease of her smile…when you’re that happy, it just bubbles to the surface pretty constantly. Check this out…
That’s me about seven months pregnant. I wasn’t one of those really fabulous pregnant women who looks perfectly proportioned and just looks like she has a basketball under her shirt. I got a little bit fat all over and my belly actually had corners. Nonetheless, I was so freakin’ happy and grateful for what was happening that I couldn’t help but smile straight into the camera for these pictures. Today, if you ask to take my picture I glare and cower, but there I was, about as round as I was tall, feeling beautiful.
Thanks, Beyoncé, for reminding me that my beauty isn’t just a function of how I’m looking on the outside, but how I’m feeling on the inside. I’m not pregnant and may never be again, so I may never recapture that glow. But maybe, if I focus on my blessings and just try to be happy, I might manage a glimmer now and again. Memo received.